I don't want to do the things.
Like...
Putting on clothes, checking the mirror... shopping... small talk about the weather, the news... holidays and hashtags.
I want to speak when I have something to say that is worth saying, worth hearing, and listen to others, and learn from them...
I want to put clothes on when I'm cold and eat when I'm hungry.. and sit with children when they have bad dreams, bring them to play with animals and eat fruit, the rest of the time...
I know it sounds ridiculous, but I feel so detached from money, and rules, and schedules. The endless spiral that causes all of the pain and fear.
Wear clothes so people don't judge you, don't hate you, don't rape you.
Work, to make money, to give it away to the people who tell you what to do, to "protect" you, from the fear they create in you. The diseases they feed you.
I want no part of it. So for the time being, because I can, I am having as little to do with it as possible.
I'm going to volunteer at the children's hospital. I'm going to learn Spanish so when if/when I move to Ecuador I can be a functioning and respectful participant in society, and if I don't, I can be helpful to those here who need it.
I'm going to share my knowledge with whoever I can whenever I can. I am going to trust that what I give will come back to me, and know that if it doesn't I will still be okay.
They say time is money?
Well both time and money are made up.
They are concepts.
Illusions.
No thank you.
