Firstly i hope your surgery goes well next week. Whats getting cut out?

Moving into the future will be like treading on thin ice. How to obtain a stable lifestyle in the ever closing in of all boundaries? Will it even be worth it? I ask myself what it's all for, and you know the funny thing about it i so i still hold hope that i will be able to live a normal lifes i can't even answer. I'm sure these thoughts are familiar.

I have long forsaken the dream of a stable life. Saving for retirement with the way the world is? I'm not sure how that will happen for me. I will just be playing catch-up in an ever tumultuous rat race as the years go on. Besides, retirement was never on my agenda. I would rather die young than try to live out the rest of my days in this fucked system, unless I can find myself a community to belong to, i do see clearly the path i will have to walk. I don't want to walk it and have been avoiding such a path for a long time, but i am not so sure i can divert myself.

The path i'm talking about is the nomadic path once more. I have lived it once and may have to again. I refuse to waste my energy trying to be comfortable as i'd rather be free. I know the price for that though....the price is a very uncomfortable life.

Unfortunately thats the way I see the world going. We are all getting checked, and the checkmate may be inevitable. We do not know how the game will be played out; i still have hope.