Don't feel down, I totally know its easy to. I've been in the art field for over 25 years and still struggle to make ends meet, I've had the good fortune to do a lot of fun stuff and make great money at times, but this is a journey that will take many shapes and lead you down many avenues. I always remind myself that I got into this because I love it! and not to to get rich. check out my website in case you're not familiar with it. www.artofjoechez.com , another thing don't rely on this website to give you value, or to gauge yourself worth,
or talent its not the right place for it! You keep going with your plans and ideas.So come on lift that spirit up! And praise God for the talent he gave you.