I am currently trying to be better, to take care of productive things, I know that in the end it will pay off.
Really like forgetting, that will see time. Before I thought about taking care of myself as much as I could and not thinking much, but this week I asked a lot about why it happened and finally I realized many things. Nothing lasts forever, it is better to live experiences that in the long run will make you mature more than you are. I had this vision since my ex and I talked about it, we were always him and me since we were little and we never met new people. Right now I am like an open book to new fruitful experiences that will mark my future, give myself some time to know. Who am I ?, to know more about the skills I have and to shine them to the fullest.
Yes, but when you grow up and see the reality of your life, you realize all the details and begin to panic. I comment to them; In September of 2010 I began this relationship, blindly in love, it is clear that when you are small, you promise many things, that you certainly do not know if it becomes a reality, but in the end we exist with that fantasy. Then when you grow up understandably many events are changing like; your way of thinking, dressing, talking among others. The thing is that you are growing together with that person, in my case it was positive because we helped each other in many situations and thanks to that we are excellent people.
In mid-2017, he began to change the deal a little, I do not know if he was afraid to grow or simply his goals were others. In conclusion, during those vacations we saw each other once a week and normally in our leisure time we did many activities. One day my great grandmother felt bad and we went to visit her in Mérida, when we arrived at the clinic we had all asked her for the blessing and tragically that day she died. Where I was staying is a small town called "Tabay", inside the apartment where we were standing did not enjoy much telephone signal and I was not talking to that person at night like four days or so and in the morning very little because I was busy with my sorrow.
When he returned to Maracay, he changed his treatment completely, he began to be more tender, to leave more, he said; that would leave his crazy thoughts that he had at that moment, really that fear of the unknown, called Future.
We are currently in internships and if God wants we graduate in December 2018. The how; Telecommunications Engineer and I like; Civil engineering.
We have never spoken of the subject but at the moment I never told him that he wanted to Marry me, right now my life is just beginning to walk having a commitment.
Going on to what happened in January-February 2018, those same thoughts of those vacations began to emerge, I passed the time and on February 5, I asked what happened to him and as a result he told me:
- Simply that he wants to experience new things, that before a commitment he had to be alone for a while, LIVE! and finally when you are about 25 years old or older you start having something serious.
- He commented; That he knew what the consequences of everything that had happened were and that if he wanted to return one day it would cost him a world to do it, apart from accepting our pasts.
- And so there would be no infidelity on your part.
I made the decision to "Let it go"
Currently we are friends, because the relationship does not end badly, we may not have the same communication as before, but he is part of my family because he has been with me since he was very small. Who knows? If he is the right one he will notice with time if I will not continue living.
It should be noted that I will not stay waiting as in a waiting chair ha ha. Things happen is for something and you do not have to force them