All the below, doesn’t really mater. They are just thoughts. I am just thankful that you are willing to listen to my mind. And as the title says. I need to train my mind. And I am hoping you enjoy the process. I know it’s personal. But I like to share the real me.
Some people who read this and know me in person and maybe noticed before, that I am a very energetic person. I like to do a lot, I work 10 - 12 hours a day and I am very curious. So I need to learn new things all the time. But when I am at home or in inner circles, I can also feel very tired. It doesn’t always upset me. Not all the time, but to be honest, I am not that old (27 years). So a few months ago I thought it’s time to figure out what is going on with me and change the way I do almost everything. And why not write about it? It’s healthy right (you see why in a second).
To start off. I am glad that I’m not having any physical problems or sicknesses. Yes. I checked. I went to my doctor with a back pain problem and shared that I felt tired. Well. It doesn’t really matter what problem I discussed with him, because doctors always tell in almost every case that physical exercise is good for your health and mostly the solution to (almost) every issue. Oh! And, my doctor said to me that I am probably a little bit overweighted and I needed to quit smoking. Thanks for that Doc. I think he is right. So, I quit smoking and started exercise. Not only for preventing, but also for solving my back pain and energy issues. But that’s not the point! For me, this brings in another challenge. Something new, in a different way. I’ll try to explain.
I started to look for a gym - AGAIN. This wasn’t my first time to start exercising! Weekly, I ran 4 - 6 kilometers, went to the gym and did cardio, muscle exercises and tried other sports like kickboxing. But non of them were really my cup of tea. Especially after a few months.
When I start going to a gym, I am going all the way! 100%! I want to feel that I am doing something. I am motivated. And as I start to exercise, I feel my strength and endurance increasing over time. But while doing so, learning and getting better. I am also getting bored. And that happens quickly. So even when I aim for a one hour run, my thoughts are running away from me after a few minutes. It’s sometimes even so strong, that I ask my self, while having all this thoughts, why am I running.
After running, what shall I do next? Oh, I would love to bake a bread today! And after that I can do some more work and do the groceries. And I saw a great article that I want to read about bitcoins. And I want to learn a new programming language. And it would be nice to make a new app! And maybe I can paint the frames on the first floor.
Ok. Thoughts. We all have them. I am wondering if we could check and compare how much thoughts we have. Do you have as much thoughts as I’m having? I’m thinking, about it right now. Even while I am writing, I’m thinking about running. It’s something that bothers me now. I need to stay concentrated….. Joris. Focus! What was I writing about?
And after a few minutes. I am back. Organizing and trying to remember where I was writing about. I hope you see my point. I was telling you about running, and I got side tracked. And that’s why I start to write. My head is always active. And always working, solving puzzles, connecting, associating and creating. And while I am writing, if I lose my attention, I can simply read back a few lines and see what I was thinking about. But during conversations or brainstorms, I don’t have that ‘red line’ that tells me what I already have said, or just wanted or going to share. And maybe I just had a great and completely different idea, that popped in my mind while I was talking. And for me that’s a challenge.
I am trying to proof a point. To my self. I started to work out and getting more physical resilient (is that word even explaining what I try to say?). That is what I wanted. But my head is still a challenge. It needs exercise too. So I am starting to write articles and stories about things I like or am fascinated about. And I challenged my self to do this in English! Because It’s not so easy for me to write in English. And I am not that good, yet. And as I believe my head needs a challenge, why wouldn’t I just accept the challenge and start something new. And I like new things. Addicted to new things.
That seems like a win-win. And writing seems something I enjoy. So it’s helping me to think about what I am trying to tell, while writing. Without the hurry and pressure to remember were I am in my mind. And maybe, when I have a fun idea or theme I want to share, it at least gets an audience and share my vision. I cannot do everything at the same time. So if you like an idea in the future, feel free to use it.
So. Writing is the best way of ordering thoughts and feelings. Honestly. I learned this from befriended psychologists. And every time when somebody tell’s me to write down my thoughts, I think, I would love to. But I am a little bit uncomfortable. Who is going to read it? But still, I would love to write. Even when I know that I am so fast side tracked. So let’s try it! Then I’ve to find stuff to write about. Oh. And I am having difficulties with grammar as well. So I have to ask my fiancé to check everything before I send it to you. And I don’t want to think about writing, I want to do it! So you see, that’s why I am writing. In case you asked yourself that question the past days.
If you like what you have read so far. Feel free to send me a personal message or send me a message on Facebook. And if you would like to read more about all the things I am thinking about, give me the thumbs up!
My next article is about cryptocurrencies. I would like to give you a insight in how I choose a cryptocurrency to invest in and why I pick those. And maybe share some other tips. Who knows.
Oh. And thanks Lana, for editing my posts and checking all the English grammar. And thanks Joyce for the great help with my exercise and keeping it fun.