I had a bad night last night, the worst bad night I have had. My body was hurting but my arms were the worst. I couldn't get comfortable, everytime I moved the pain shot through my arms. I had my medication hoping thru would numb the pain, they didn't make no difference. I used to take Codiene, these helped my pain but I had to be weaned off then, took 2 years. I still have some left over that I take when I can't bear the pain. My daughter sorts my pills out for me as I'm not allowed to with taking an overdose a couple of years ago. I couldn't get in touch with her foot her to tell me where they were as it was 4am when I tried to get in touch, she was sound asleep. I had to suffer, I feel asleep for half an hour then fell out of bed and bumped my head.
I have spent the whole day in pain. My daughter got home around 12 o'clock, she brought me a Codiene down from where she hides them. Within 10 minutes I could feel the pains numning down, they weren't as strong but still there. I can only have 1 Codiene as they make me constipated, one will last an hour or 2 then I'll pop in the shower for a hot spa under the hot water, then it will be times for my last batch of medication for the day.
I am dreading tomorrow, hubby is back at seriel and my daughter is going back to her boyfriends coming home on Wednesday I will have most of the day my myself probably sat in the sofa with my feet up. I hate being like this taking up my hubbys and daughters time. Being dependant on others is who I am.
I like to be helping others, I want to feel wanted I want to feel useful, even asking my hubby to make me a coffee is hard as it's a simple task but I can't always do it.
Last night was my worst night ever, I hate to think that is how it is gong to be from now, I don't think I can handle the pains getting worse.
I'm lucky as I have a hubby who doesn't mind looking after me, he cooks, cleans and works hard. My youngest daughter is my carer she makes sure I have my medication at the right time. I take quite a few medication, she has to put them into pill pots for me. Its a job I used to do but after taking an overdose I can't be trusted.
I take:
Lanzaprazole 1 daily
Lyrica x 3
Duloxetine x3
Amitriptyline x 3
Clonodine x 3
Vitamin D x 1
Fostair Inhaler
Montelukast x 1
Naproxen x 2
Paracetomol 2 x 4 times a day.
Ludocaine patches for bedtime.
Its now nearly bedtime which I can't wait for. I have stopped myself from going up to early as I will be awake most of the night.
Thank you for visiting. 💟💟
