I am having a pain filled day today, I haven't had a fibromyalgia flare for a while, I was Ok when I got up with hubby at breakfast, I did have pain in my neck and shoulders, I probably should have realised then that something was brewing. I went back to bed woke up around half 10 feeling stiff and in a lot of pain. I am better off left in bed as getting up is hard and I need a hand to steady myself to walk. its even worse when I am by myself with hubby at work and my daughter at her boyfriends but its something I have to get used to. My daughter will want to move out at some point.
Once my daughter does leave there will be less washing and drying, I will save money on food shopping, the house would stay tidier an she can be messy at times. BUT I can't say that to her or she will get upset. She came back for one day then got bored as friends weren't going out and there was only me and her dad here. She has gone back to her boyfriends until the weekend, so she says we will probably not see her again until next Monday for one day.
If we could have seen in to the future we wouldn't have bought her a pup and bird as they are hard heavy work, I couldn't let them go now we have them as they are part of our family. My youngest daughter wants my oldest daughter to move closer, that isn't going to happen if anything she will move further away. I keep telling her we will manage we always do.
I do everything possible for both my daughters as most mums would, just wish I had my health to do a lot more. They only have to ask once and I will be there. Isn't that what families do for each other.
Growing up I never had this, if I wanted or needed something I had to do it myself, once I hit 14 I had to get a part time job to pay for any new clothes or smellies. I got a job at a fruit and Vegetable shop working in the shop cleaning up then again all Saturday, After a few months I was looking after the shop by myself. I could never ask my mother for nothing, I had also been told once you move out you can't come back. Then when I left school and got full time job my parents made sure they got half of my wages with me still having to buy what I needed. I didn't use this when I had my family, I make sure my daughters are OK before I think of myself.
Hubby helped me downstairs for my Tea, he doesn't like me eating alone as I have a tendency to choke even when I am drinking, don't know why as I eat slowly just something like to choke me. Maybe someone has a voodoo doll of me, it must be full of pins the way I am feeling at the moment.
Its bed time again, woohoo time to stretch out and rest my limbs, here's hoping it has passed for tomorrow as I am by myself all day. My 3 pups are watching me which tells me mum we need to sleep, Off to bed then.
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