HAPPY NEW MONTH
Its been a bed day for me, its been all I can manage. I didn't go shopping with hubby and his mum today I couldn't face the outside world or other people, I just didn't want to fake smile nor did I want to look miserable so bed called my name and that's where I stayed, Just me, Mika & Luna. Those 2 did a lot of sleeping whilst my head wouldn't stop or give me a break. I got to have most of the day to myself, its what I need when I'm like this as I'm not nice to be around. I'm 61 and still dealing with the after shocks of child abuse. In still here and breathing so that's something positive to hang onto.
I left Hive for about a year as things in my life wasn't good and all I felt back then was negativity but after reading a few posts I realised how much I needed Hive I have family I can talk to but they are biased so worrying on Hive gives me the chance to write how im really feeling without them reading or realising, it does me good to empty the load without hurting anyone. When you have depression you need to find an outlet that gives you the peace and safety to say how exactly your feeling them when you come back to read it you can pat yourself in the back for hanging on there and growing. I'll never let my abusers win, they lost the moment I stopped caring.
Luna has been having an off day to , she knows when I'm not feeling good. I think she may come out in sympathy for me or maybe wants all the attention.
Put your sound on for this video, this is what Luna has sounded like all day.
She has clung to my side in bed and at the monument clung to my side I my chair. I know there's nothing up as she's still eating her treats, its one way of knowing when Luna is feeling bad she won't touch a treat or her food. She's such a little diva.
Hubby got back from shopping, he hates shopping so I helped him out this week will the Supermarket did, they sent me a £5 voucher to use online if I spend over £40. So used to voucher to pay the delivery fee then did a home shop with all the heavy stuff, bottles of water, beer, toilet rolls etc so hubby didn't have to bother with that and icky had to do the actual food shopping. Made sense and helped us out as I got a chance to order a few offers saving us money and having extra in.
He helps his mum out quite a bit, I make sure he does as she's a lovely lady, she has 2 other sons who don't do much for her. His mum has just phoned to say she has a problem with her fishtank, he thinks it needs a water test so he's gone down there to sort it out as she would spend the next few days worrying, she's 82 and lives alone. She's the only mum I've had as mine was bloody awful.
Its now time for me to feed our Turtles, then play my weekend game online bingo.
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