I'm having a bad day today, lots of pain, had a hard time getting out of bed at tea time. Hubby cane home finding me still sleeping in bed. My 3 pups haven't left my side, they always know when I'm not feeling well.
Hubby had to dash to the shop for somethings we forgot over the weekend, he then got back and had a shower, this was around 4.30 and I was still in bed. I needed a shower plus a shower just much wake me up the only problem I had was getting the energy to make it to the shower. Hubby put my shower seat in for me, he got everything I needed such as towels and clean pyjamas to save me from getting them.
Moving took me a few minutes, I have to push myself. Once I was sitting on my shower seat feeling the hot water hit my body I felt my body relax. Once showered and dressed I made my way downstairs. I sat on the sofa making myself comfortable. Hubby brought me some food as I hadn't eaten all day. The food has to be soft as I'm still suffering with my tooth and tongue. The pain from my tongue is really bad.
My life has changed so much since becoming poorly. I had so many plans for my future which none have happened due to the pain and other problems. I wanted to see more of our world, I wanted to train to be a hairdresser. I didn't expect to be sleeping my life away missing out on so much. I spend to much time sleeping but while I sleep my dreams are better than real life, I don't have a disability, I can walk and run, do things I know I will never get the chance to, my life is so much better in my dreams. I miss being able to do the things I used to. Being able to get out of bed without crying would be a good start.
We never know what is around the corner, anything could happen. One single thing you do can change your future. Would be handy if we knew what we know now but that only comes with old age. We all have to learn by our mistakes that's one thing I have done is taught myself so much but to late to rectivy it, I pass my knowledge on to my girls sadly they don't listen because when your young you seem to know everything. They will learn.
I have been out of bed for 4 1/2 hours but feels like I have ran a marathon and been up for hours. I can't wait to get back in to bed, I'm also hating myself for being like this. Its no life, each day is the same, I have the odd day where I fell I could do more then the next day I pay for it. Oh well bed here I come. Again.
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