It's been more than a week already that I haven't posted something. Discouragement, frustration, depression, hatred and all those negative vibes ate me up.
So many article drafts in my table that remains unfinished and so many erasures that made it into nothing and those thoughts in my mind vanished without my hands put those into writing. So many poems that were left hanging, no ending that results in a crumpled paper.
Can't find those strength in the past weeks, problems piled up added by a bad news from the Philippines that I almost gave up that I don't know what to do anymore. I didn't expect that I could experience this kind of situation, I've been hard on myself which is not good. Wasted my time by just sulking and over thinking about the problems. Can't even open my steemit account for a while.
My mom kept on telling me that everything's gonna be okay and just trust the plans of God because He knows the best for me. I prayed like it's my first time to pray and poured my heart out and took my time to talk to Him. Questions kept on pouring in me and I'm seeking for answers until I received it from His message for me.
I lift everything to Him and I'm so amazed at His plans, step by step I know He is the one who guides me stand back on my feet. Little by little some of those problems were solved and questions answered. I'm so embarrassed that I forgot that He's just there waiting to help me.
I then realized that if I'll just sulk and worry, my problems will not be solved; My tears and weakness won't help me find a solution. I can't let this pull me down but it's not that easy to stand up for being so down. I can't just let this battle lose without a fight, someone is depending on my strength. With prayers and support from friends, I tried to be back and find the path again.
EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON
This is the quote that I hold on and want to live by for I believe that everything that we are experiencing now has its reasons, we may not understand it now but eventually, we will and when that day will come we'll thank the Lord for all of His amazing plans.
It's okay not to be okay because we are humans and not robots who can't feel anything but we should also think about the people around us because we don't know how worried they are for us. It's okay to be weak, let's just take a rest but never quit.
To all those who are experiencing their low moments, always remember that we have our God who will always listen to us. We have our family and friends that will support us and there are people who have bigger problems than us but continue to smile and live positively. Let's pause and think about what we can do to make things right and to lighten up our problems. We can all do this :)
Sending good vibes to everyone! :)
