I was tortured and sexually abused by a pedophile group operating in the UK during the 1980s. They were part of a network of abusers which, we now know from investigative newspaper reports, were connected with the UK Government and other power structures.

Escaping my programmed responses

I am in the process of de-programming myself from the trauma-based conditioning I was subjected to. So far, I have processed the core memories of abuse, including forced-participation the murder of a 10-year-old child, the same age as I was, at the camp where I was held.

Thanks to recommendations from others on Steemit, I am in the process of understanding more about the psychological conditioning I underwent, which I have outlined here.

However, I am finding it difficult to access the full-extent of what was conditioned into me during the repeated rapes and beatings I, and other children at the camp, were subjected to.

What should I do next?

If you have any advice on how I can liberate myself from the remnants of these programs, then please let me know.

So far, these books have been suggested by the amazing Hive account@dakini5d:

• Thanks for the Memories: The Memoirs of Bob Hope's and Henry Kissinger's Mind-Controlled Sex Slave by Brice Taylor

• TRANCE: Formation of America and ACCESS DENIED: For Reasons of National Security by Cathy O'Brien

• THE ENSLAVED QUEEN: A Memoir about Electricity and Mind Control, By Wendy Hoffman

• Chrysalis: Intel at Any Cost: CIA Sanctioned Torture of Children, by M.C. Nelson.

• How to Create a Complete Mind-Controlled Slave by Fritz Springmeier

• Safe passage to healing: A guide for survivors of ritual abuse, by Chrystine Oksana

• The Montauk Project by Preston Nichols and Peter Moon

• Mind Control, World Control by Jim Keith

• Mass Control: Engineering Human Consciousness by Jim Keith.

Have I reported my abusers to the police in the UK?

Some of you have asked if I reported Clare's murder to the police. Sadly, the police in the UK actively participated in pedophile rings and it is significant to remember that the British Government was raping children and concealing the evidence.

So, reporting historical child-murders or rapes to the police is a near-impossible undertaking. Nothing happens in response. The national inquiry into the rape of children in the UK has gone through many, many chairs because they are unable to find anyone in a position of legal authority in the UK who is not incompetent or connected to a suspected paedophile.

So, you can see why my report went unheard. In effect, this is my report here, on Steemit. If the police have any interest in prosecuting Clare's killers at some point in the future, then all the information they need is here. Sadly, they appear to have no interest because they support the very power structures that facilitate child-abuse.