Sometimes it can be hard to remember that we are actually better than we think we are. Especially if something in your life has happened that makes you think otherwise and even more so if you suffer from depression.
A few months ago I was laid off from the first job I could do that did not give me so much anxiety I felt like I'd rather die. I was able to translate entertainment news articles (fancy name for clickbait) from the safety of my own home. My hours were flexible since I worked with my best friend and we could cover from each other if needed be. All good things sadly finds a way to end and I felt like I was worthless. I was worried how I would be able to pay my rent since welfare is my absolute last resort. It was then I realized that all my friends and family have something to fall back on if all else fails. My sister's boyfriend, for example, is an amazing artist to the point him and my sister have their own company and website just for this. You can check that out here! My best friend is also a great artist, as seen here. Most of my friends are also currently pursuing a lot of interesting and impressive educations. So, while I was happy for them, I was a bit sad that I did not have a special skill.
Those who are fortunate enough have educations they can fall back on, even if it might not be their dream job, since some choose an education that can benefit them financially and that's awesome, they can still fall back on that if needed. I have had to struggle with my messy mental health all my life I haven't been able to get a proper education, yet. Even if you have an education that may be a bit risky in terms of chance of employment, you still have learned a lot along the way that you can use, so no education is bad even if it is harder to fall back on than others. Just wanted to get that out there so it does not sound like I'm bashing on anyone.
So, what about me then? Well, each time I complained about not being good at anything while praising the people around me, each person told me the same thing. That I was good at writing. I scoffed at them, and I still sort of do, but they did have a point. I can write, I mean, I am hardly a professional writer and English is my second language, but it is something. I tried to work as a freelance writer and one of the few jobs I got was, in the end, one of my best ones. I was tasked to write articles that were insanely boring (think basically, explaining why hotels should invest in SmartTV's, that kind of boring) and other subjects I knew very little about. For eight hours of work, more than half of that was research, I got paid 5 dollars. Safe to say, I did not accept any more offers. It makes for a fun story but without it, I would probably not have given Steemit a chance. Here, I can write whatever I want to write about and probably get paid more than I did for that job.
While I am not exactly making a tonne of money, each dollar is proof to me that my friends were right. That there is actually at least one thing that I am good at. And sometimes you only need one good thing in life to start feeling better about yourself, and that is what matters, right?
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Thank you all for reading! I would love to read some comments on what you are good at!