Hi, my name is kody and I'm an addict.
When i first started saying those words I didn't actually believe what i was saying, i would just play the part and tell people what they wanted to hear. I wasn't ready to give up my vice BUT i wanted to want to quit, and for anyone who has ever dealt with addiction that you will understand. I struggled for years will pills before graduating to Herion.
Herion eventually took my life and everything else of value from it as well. My days blurred together in a grey mist of drugs, crime and self pity. I alienated myself from friends and family eventually becoming homeless so that i could do drugs and whatever else I wanted without anyone telling me otherwise.
After robbing countless homes and being mistaken for a bank robber I was finally brought in too jail on a three day commitment that ended up lasting for 75 days.
I sobered up enough in jail to realize that if i didn't do something to change my life direction NOW I would continue down my current path of destruction and ultimately end up alone, sad and broken. So i gave in to fate and got into a program through the courts called Drug Court which helps people who have committed crimes due to alcohol or drug abuse and IF they were able to complete the 2 year program the charges would be dismissed, and so i found my answer.
I struggled for almost a year to maintain my sobriety while in the program. I was going to jail every weekend on violations. The drug court team gave me every chance and helped me in as many ways as they could think of but nothing would stick, it appeared I wasn't as ready to be done as i thought. The paperwork was signed to kick me out of the program....
The week before my termination hearing, the drug court coordinator called me and said "if i moved up north a few countys and met with a doctor that prescribes suboxene (a medication that helps addicts from opiate abuse) and COULD maintain my sobriety, that she could drop the termination, and so i did.
ATLAST we had success, suboxene changed my life!! suddenly I could live again without the constant thought of needing to use, I could focus on any task and have real meaningful conversations with people. It was like being brought back from the dead, I could feel life in my once again!!
After suboxene I was able to get a job and start working, the first job I'd had in years. Since then ( less then 2 years ago) I've worked my way up from a $12/hr labor to a lead crew at $16/hr. I own stocks in two different brokerage accounts and buy gold and silver to preserve my wealth. I invest money into a I.R.A. i started for myself and have been an investor in Bitcoin and other crypto as well. I have a beautiful girlfriend who has auditioned for Americain Idol and the voice and currently is working her way through the music industry.
Moral of the story is, I came from a dark place that some people couldn't even imagine let alone live through and came out the other side a better person. I've had hard life lessons and learned things through my experiences some people don't learn in a lifetime. I'm not proud of my past but if i could go back now and change things....I wouldn't.
Gotta love life. Its the not the destination but the journey that's important and we all go down our own road.