Are you a good girl? Are you the one who always gives, understand, forgive, relinquishes? Are you silent about your desires, swallowing offensive words, sighing in your dreams, forgetting fatigue to help?
And who are you really? No, not your name, profession, and your family status, I do not ask about them ... Who are you? Have you forgotten? You never knew? I know you feel as if you're a born child - to help Mom, to please my dad, to be obedient, neat, polite ...
Was not he living for the praise and the bravo of the elderly? Can you afford to be even a little responsible someone near you cries, cry, suffer? Of course, not, you are the good girl! And then he grew up believing in the lie that you were responsible for the whole world, wrapped his sleeves, hung his heart in front and rushed to save, to enjoy, to take the strange sufferings ...
Who are you really? I know you think you had no choice but to be good, sweet, responsible ... to deserve love. And then he showed up and wished to grab your heart - who would not take a willing heart of great volition?
And you were lucky to be able to give, to still understand, to forgive ... But instead of proudly priding yourself on this valuable asset - your heart, he stepped on it - passed on it, passed on your heart without a drop!
And then he went forward without turning around, went to her-the one with an icy heart. Leave it, he wants to suffer! But what will you do? Will you give your broken heart to someone else to break it? Will you wait for him to come back, in a desperate hope to change it, to know what gift your love is?
Will you wait to repent, cry like a child and ask you? Good always beats, is not it? And you're the good girl who believes in fairy tales ... But it's not a fairy tale, it's your life! No, do not you understand that life is suffering, and goodness is only in fairy tales, it is not quite like that ... But that's just not your good, but the fairy tale ... the tale you write it for you!
And who are you really? Who are you, if you do not try to win the love of others? Who will you be, what will you think, what will you do if all the love of the world falls at your feet? I know what you think - you think you're not trying to win love, and it's just you - giving, forgiving, understanding ...
No, you can not fool me, it's not you, just no one is always like that. Nobody is ALL GOOD, good, understandable! Do not you believe me? Remember those moments when you condemn people that they are not big hearts like you! Remember your indignation that they do not think they give you like you!
Remember your mystery pride from the excellence of your kindness! Remember the reluctance, the laziness that you are losing when you want another service! Remember your inner grumble against all of them who are waiting for your goodness to save them! And the moments when you can not be still giving, good ... when you break out, scream, you refuse?
The moments followed by that crushing silence called wines - do you remember them? Yes? So you are just a man like everyone else - good and bad, forgiving and vengeful, understanding and petty, accepting and condemning ... just a man. So, kindness and giving love are not your true nature, they are not your real face ... You know, they are not really a real face!
The good girl is just a mask, an exhausting, exhausting role! Let me suggest you try something different - take off the mask, get off the stage and feel all the power that flows into you from this choice. Allow the world to do it on its own, let the others leave it - God has given them the power too! Get this weight off your shoulders and take a rest, sleep ... The sun will shine tomorrow, even if you do. The world will continue ... I have not said without you without your giving and kindness.
Of course, the world will not be the same without you, but you have another shine to brighten up, so take your heart inside - where it belongs.
Do not you know who you are if you are not a good girl? Yes, you've been wearing your mask for too long, playing your role too long, it's quite natural not to know who you are without it. You are the one who is confused, has just taken off the mask, left the scene and is now looking for yourself - now this is your real self, and tomorrow it will be different. This is the good of the truth - it is flexible and constantly changing, like a lush river!
Close your eyes, imagine that you are a mighty sorcerer who creates his reality. Whisper to yourself three times the spell: "I am the light and the darkness, the good and the evil, the hero and the villain, I am all!" Now smile - this is the last ingredient of magic!
Much love - Krisii
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