1. This is a personal journal entry; furthermore, it is not a research paper or an opinion article. It is only me sharing a glimpse into my world through a dairy entry from June 3,2015. * June 3rd is a big day in the code I see, I probably will never share another entry from this day or tell the story on why it is a big day. Just know an entry from this day is special to me. * within the entry you will find a clear struggle within myself trying to figure out why I have such grandiose ideas or feelings. I always think I am special in some massive way during psychosis, for this I apologize. I can not help it, if I could I would because I want desperately to be part of the herd again. Or have my voice heard again. * this is only to provoke discussion, raise awareness of illness, and answer a request for information from another user. Again, in no way are these theories scientifically based or researched. It is just how I see the world at times. * please have a beautiful day!