"Life has Negative Changes - It's your job to make them Positive!" - unknown
The only thing in life that I've come to know as an absolute certainty in my almost 40 years on Earth is this - Nothing is certain, Nothing is forever, Change is inevitable and inescapable.
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"BIG CHAIR, LITTLE GIRL"
In the picture above sits the love of my life, my everything, my daughter "Aubrey". Her innocence has a peculiar silencing effect on me at times. I am awed by her strength, and resilience to change - this far at least.
Life surely is entirely more simple at 2 1/2 years of age than 39 years. But is it? Responsibilities of a toddler are hard to measure. Her mother and I try our best to raise her to be polite, courteous, well-behaved, a good listener, honest, loving and I suppose (responsible for helping to pick up her toys).
"REWIND ABOUT 30 DAYS"
I suppose I should have prefaced this post with this segment - but as I'm writing it - like most posts I've written - it's from the "hip" and certainly from my "heart"
About 30 days ago my life was shattered to pieces when my daughters mother decided it was no longer in her or our daughters best interest to live together - as a dysfunctional family, under one roof.
I had known that this day would come for over a year now - but how can one mentally accept it, prepare for it - when it is their worst nightmare finally coming to fruition. Had I known the answer of the How's - I would have given anything for the insight.
PRESENT DAY - DARK BECOMES LIGHT
"Every darkness of the human spirit eventually becomes light again - it's up to yourself to prolong or expedite the process" - unknown
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EMBRACE NATURE AND FIND THE LIGHT
Im not embarrassed at all to say that at 39 years old - I had very little choice in terms of instant change living situations. What does one do at my age without the means to instantly rent out a high-rise, purchase a new home, or even afford a roach motel?
Reach out to my Mother. Reach out to the only adult person in my entire life that has never turned their back to me and has always been selfless, loving and supportive.
I have lived in Connecticut in the U.S. my entire life. I've lived in over 10 different towns, cities since leaving the nest after college but always settled in the middle parts of CT.
About 12 years ago my Mother moved to Clinton, CT. Purchased a quaint little home on the shoreline and quietly has been enjoying her love of the water, nature and beautiful shoreline area.
OR... LET THE LIGHT FIND YOU
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I took this picture at Clinton Beach which really isn't a beach - beach per say - but has an impressive playground and gorgeous scenery of the New England Sound, Clinton Harbor, and Unending Skies.
In the photograph my daughter is relentless in catching one of the birds... She loved the joy and thrill of trying to catch the uncatchable - And it brought joy to my heart watching her and helping her.
SUBTLE SMILES TRAVEL MILES
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There's something about this photograph that just screams - "life is an adventure, buckle up, and embrace the little moments"
TODAY - ABLE TO STEEM AGAIN
It took me just about a month to be able to even login to STEEMIT and share my current life situation with my STEEMIT family.
For me that is progress. Being able to share my worst nightmares coming true, my uncertainties, and the coming light of knowing that...
EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT
I realize this post is incomplete with Present Day, Past and the Middle.. But if you read it - I hope the ending made you smile. My intention by posting this was an exercise in putting my personal life out there to STEEMIT and see where it lands.
Having been my first post after an absence of over a month on STEEMIT I can only imagine it will not be read, seen, or commented on by many but I believe in positive thinking and hopefully a few people will be able to relate to it, maybe open their eyes, find some needed light, have a deeper appreciation for whatever it is that brings them joy, and know that no matter what life brings - we all have no control of its twists and turns and can only make choices to steer our ships in the direction that we want to travel to.
Much Love to Everyone on STEEMIT -
What the hell do I tag this post with?? I'd love to use a "introduce myself" tag or a "re-introduce" myself tag - but to be honest the "steemcleaners" scare me of banning the post :)
Note - I rolled the dice with "re-introduce" as a tag - I hope it seems as fitting for STEEMIT as it does for me.