It's fun to go back a decade or so and laugh at ourselves and our bad art and bad poetry.
To be fair I had reasons for my angst. I was dealing with really serious life-long abuse but Jesus Christ adolescent me can't you pick up a few books and learn to express yourself with some decent poetry?
I thought it would be fun to share the poems here for some laughs. I had to look in the "historical database" on poetry.com which made me feel ancient but, that's okay. I wouldn't want to a be a tween again, that's for sure!
Avalanche
A giant rocks falling from the sky
crushing my body
And everything inside
This entire world seems to just quit
yes that's what I want
An avalanche
I seriously considered editing out the typo out of shame but, nope, that is how I entered it. "A giant rocks". cackles
Scars
The scars run deep
And the blood runs red
All I can see is your face in my head
And I want to go back
And I want you to care
But it's all done now
It was never really there.
Blurr
How many faces must i go through to get to the end?
How many people to talk to before i find a friend?
I've been so many places,
Just passing by time
Met so many people
Been in so many lives.
But I've never met one,
Who stayed,or who cared
So i move on but before long
All these faces become a blur,
I'm sick of trying,
My soul is dying,
I cant do it anymore,
I'm not even capable of crying.
So i tune everything out.
Everyone out.
Nothing matters anymore.
So whats the point ?
OMG this one takes the cake. Why all the lower case i's though??? Man, this is bad.
I'm Sorry
I act so tough, So stong inside
I wont open up, Wont let you in
You think I'm so tough
So strong inside
But really I'm just a mess
I'll break in a second
I need someone
To protect me
Keep me safe, warm and dry
But all I get is pain
Rejection
Abuse
Neglection
I get walked all over
Any time I let anyone in
You wonder why I act so tough
Why I pretend
Why I wont let you in
I just cant get hurt again...
Okay, I gotta be honest as bad as these poems are like seriously, my mom READ these and did nothing? Boy, some people should not have kids. Hello, we're going to Red Flags! That actually reminds me I barely got an education due to moving, homelessness, abuse, bullying and so forth so maybe I get a pass on this bad poetry? No, okay. I hope you guys found this as cringe-worthy as I did. I thought it would be funny but for me it is just really...cringey. Like, could past me just not?
