Well, I know it won't hurt and I strongly feel it may help.
It is certainly not scientifically backed but I feel personally a lot of my bladder issues may be exacerbated by the anger and stress I am holding onto due to my repeated childhood (and adult) sexual abuse. So, I plan to start trying to get rid of all that pent up anger and bitterness through meditation. I wanted to share the process with you guys. I started today and here is what I will be doing every day.
I will still be seeing my urologist and getting medical help and diagnosis but I feel adding this into my healing process may really progress things. At worst, it will help me relieve stress and be more mindful but I really think it will do more than that. I am even trying some things that I am skeptical about because why not? Like, binaural beats.
Daily Yoga designed for Interstitial Cystitis and PFD.
I can no longer do all the yoga I used to do but I can pay to get lots of yoga videos that are specifically designed for people with my issues and not only will they not hurt but they help to relax my tight pelvic muscles and will potentially offer relief.
Once I can afford to do so I am going to purchase this yoga course that is specifically designed for people with pelvic floor issues. http://pelvicpainrelief.com/pressyoga/
I WISH I could afford this course: http://pelvicpainrelief.com/femalepelvicalchemy/
But it is $695. I can't swing it even with the 4 monthly payments. It looks like it would be super helpful for people in my position and was specifically design for people with IC, PFD, and other painful bladder diseases by a woman who suffered herself for years. However, I think the yoga which is only $47 is a good start.
Starting my morning with guided meditations on healing physical pain and healing sexual trauma.
This is the visualization/meditation I started my day with:
I will also be doing meditation that focuses on forgiveness, healing the inner child, and healing sexual trauma. I will be doing the one on physical pain relief in the morning.
Binaural beats because why not?
I am the biggest skeptic you will meet but when I see a video for IC relief and a ton of comments saying how it has helped I have to give it a shot. I have been disabled to the point of being unable to leave my home for 2 years now so I have nothing to lose. Today I listened to binaural beats for bladder pain and for interstitial cystitis.
Night-time meditation for healing trauma and letting go of anger.
Before bed I will be doing meditations that are guided and centered around healing sexual trauma issues, resolving inner child damage, and letting go of anger. I think this will help me mentally even if it doesn't have an affect on my bladder physically. I know that anger and stress can manifest physically and I know I am harboring anger and resentment due to years and years of abuse. It is time to let go, for myself.
Healing Affirmations.
Last night before bed I repeatedly told myself that my bladder was healed and let my body know it could stand down from "defense" mode. This is because I feel like the repeated trauma could have lead to so many pelvic floor and bladder issues. So, just in case, I am letting myself believe I am healed and telling my body to stand down it's defenses while reassuring it that everything is fine now and that I will help heal and protect it.
I will share my experiences with you on my blog.
There is more to my healing including doctors and diagnosis but I will be investing a lot of energy into remaining positive and not telling myself I am incurable. I will be trying to help my mind and body heal by getting myself mentally together.
