So, since I got back from the hospital I have been rather...lethargic and mildly depressed.
Like I got so close to killing myself that I no longer am even going there in my head as an option which has resulted in this just mild depression and lack of ambition and I am DONE. I need to get my shit together and pack into a backpack. All of it. So it's together. The first step to doing that is cleaning what I call my depression mess. IT has gotten ....very bad. I eat in my bed and then just put the trash on the floor next to it. This is only something I do when I am in a real funk. Then eventually I wake up and I am like "Where am I!?".
In my opinion, keeping my room tidy has a HUGE impact on my mental health. When everything is neat and orderly I am so much more likely to be in a decent mood and so much more capable of getting things done. However, it is so overwhelming and difficult to get things done with my depression stacked on my anxiety stacked on my PTSD stacked on my insanely painful debilitating bladder disease so without making myself take accountability I fear I will be swimming in garbage.
That's where you come in Steemit.
I figured I can share pictures of this mess as embarrassing and awful as it is with the promise of posting after pictures tonight when I finish. This will make me have to get my shit all together and take it to a shit museum. So stay tuned for the after photos.
God this is mortifying.
This is seriously hard for me to post. This isn't how anyone wants to present themselves but not only is this giving an honest portrayal of how my mental and physical illnesses affect my life but it really will help me to take accountability and get it cleaned up. Well, I am off to tackle this disgusting mess. Better hurry so I have time to vacuum!! I plan to have it done tonight so I can update you guys with the after pictures of my new tidy room.
