I don't know what the general consensus between people now is, but when I was younger, and found life really confusing I was one of those people that used to sigh and say quietly and inwardly,
"I wish I was normal"
"I wish I had a normal life like other people. A mortgage, a car, a partner and a life"
It seemed like these things came so simple to other people, my friends, my family, but not me. I struggled to keep a job down never mind a loving partner. Life to me seemed so abnormal and abstract, even connecting with the people that I should be seemed a difficult task,
And I would watch my friends and their connections with people would flow easily. They made it seem like it should be natural. It should be inherited into the very nature of my essence.
I was definitely not normal.
No way.
I lost a lot of confidence in my teens. Watching everyone at school flowing in and out of relationships, and me, there on my own with my one or two friends.
And then as a young adult, as I desperately tried to cling onto the few friendships that I was able to manage. I didn't like that I was on my own.
God forbid they got angry with me and ended up challenging our friendship.
"Please don't leave me. Look, I can be really nice. Honestly"
But after a few years into my late twenties a beautiful thing happened. I started to enjoy being on my own. I started to enjoy being in my own company.
Explanation here: https://steemit.com/depression/@lifeisawesome/are-you-depressed-or-do-you-know-someone-that-is
And as I grew and aged and gained confidence I realised that more and more people have quirky differences like me, and some people struggle to get a few sentences out, never mind have a conversation with someone.
And then that led me on to thinking - is there really a normal? What I term as normal could be totally different to what others would call it.
Put it this way, I had a young man look at me once when we were discussing gaming, and he said: "Wow, I didn't expect a normal guy like you to like that type of game" this is when I would describe my mentality as completely messed up.
It should have clicked then, but it didn't. I should have noticed that everyone describes normality from a totally different viewpoint.
So years from then, and after a ton of introspection, I have come to the thinking that there is no normal. The only normal in my life is my normality. Normal is what I make it.
And it should be the same for you. If it's normal for you, then it's your normal.
Forget societies warped view on what a perfect man or woman should be like to function in today's world, because 'perfect' is an unattainable situation. No-one or nothing is perfect.
You are awesome, friend. Never forget that!