I AM TIRED OF LIVING THIS FUCKING MISERABLE AND AGONIZING LIFE. Every day I want to fucking die and kill myself. I am tired of being blamed for everything and I am tired of comparing myself to others. I feel powerless and worthless. I have no friends at all and I have no one I can truly talk to. 
My parents hate me and don't support anything I do. My whole life I have heard them bashing me, verbally harassing me, and even exposing me to their friends, coworkers, and family. I can't be seen with them it's embarrassing for me and them. You don't know how it feels to have lived your whole life in a house and family where everyone blames you for something going wrong or looks down on you. I can't even be mad at them for being disappointed at me or saying whatever they want about me because I honestly deserve it I am a piece of, I am worthless, and I am a disappointment. But what I can blame them for is BRINGING ME INTO THIS FUCKIGN WORLD. Just because they gave birth to me doesn't mean I owe them shit. I never asked to be born in the first place, put into a life where I only feel pain and hatred. I never asked for any of this and I don't want any of this. I don't owe them shit even if they did give me a place to stay and raised me. They raised me into a fucking antisocial, stupid, worthless, loser. And for that, I don't owe them shit. I still remember getting beaten by them, although they eventually stopped they verbal harassment remained. They say that words hit more than physical pain. It's true and I have felt that. I hate being blamed for doing bad in a lab or project because I am too stupid, losing games and things that I don't even do or knew. I have never been social in my life no matter how much I try I just can't talk to people normally. 
Everyone that I have talked to have eventually ignored me, become annoyed by me or have even come to hate me. It's not just women that hate me and will never like me, but men too it's just that their more approachable and less harsh then women are. I will never have sex, I will never have kids, hell I will probably never even have a friend again since I am the way I am. But then again I guess I do deserve all this; I got no one else to blame but myself for becoming what I am today. I mean what's the point in living anymore when I hate myself and everything about my life besides video games, videos, and stories. Why the fuck am I still alive? Am I that much of a coward to just kill myself? I don't know anymore and I don't want to think about it anymore.
Anyways, this is just a short rant that I thought about today and wanted to get off my chest. Maybe I just had another bad day and decided to share it, but then again this sounds just like every other day to me.
Love, Lil willy
