I relate to the emptiness. Sometimes it feels like it would just be easier to believe in god, or have religious faith to fall back on. When I find myself struggling or anxious about something, I have to have faith in myself that I'll make it through. But sometimes I just wished I could unload that weight and just have faith in a higher power. At the same time, I like having that self reliance and not blindly subscribing to "the bindings of prescripted faith" as you explain. What I do like about religion is the community it provides, the traditions, as well as the faith in common humanity. I wish there was an easier way to replicate those aspects for agnostic or atheist people.