I upvoted when posted but I just read... So... the more I know you, the more similar I see we are...
Especially that: ''Most of the time these books makes me feel secure and confident while reading them. Afterwards, I feel like "damn, I have no idea what my real self is and I certainly can't find my gift". '' - the story of my life... and the general 'being lost' feeling often...
Also, sign talk, they say that after 30 the ascendent counts more so that's Scorpio for me -hence water makes sense...
I love your photos because I love water too...in all its different forms...
Of course I'm Greek, how could I not???
As I'm used to say 'water helps me think'...You know, sea, pool, even bathtub or even just shower, it helps me think... Sometimes though, my thoughts don't get me anywhere...Hugs deary :*