I recently accepted a job ...
It has been a long time since I've been in a position like this ...
I woke up this morning dreading going to work. I was still tired from the day before. I hadn't had the time to accomplish the things that were important to me and I was not excited about spending the day with my bee co-worker.
Is this what everyone else feels?
And more importantly, is this what everyone else endures??
This can not be good.
Today is literally my third day.
I took the job because I wanted to make some $$ but geeeeeeez is it worth it.
One other path I have considered is literally just walking around the United States with a pack of gear, working as needed to make money for food and drink and living my life with along it's own pace.
Where is the middle ground?
How do we find balance with this?
The idea of doing this week after week, year after year is not frightening ... It's deadening.
I imagine what I would be like after years of subservience in this manner and I see a flacid blanket of skin wrapped around the shell of what used to be a man.
I am not saying that jobs are bad. That is inherently untrue. But, if thinking about your job elicits a legitimate negative emotionally response, you might want to consider doing something about it.
The key for me is:
Health first
Fulfilling work
Giving back
So far I've yet to really check off any boxes with this new crew.
I was excited about the position but sense a lack of compatibility with my coworker.
I enjoy carpentry but also know that the decks I am building don't solve any legitimate problems.
And lastly, forcing myself to wake up at this time has added a level of stress to my life that will ultimately, unless handled, lead to exhaustion ... Which for me equates to depression.
What are the positives of this experience.
I was stimulated to launch my own company. Lol, two days in and I've had enough of the employee life ... Back to being an entrepreneur
I've developed some interpersonal skills that I can carry with me forever.
I also learned some valuable marketing skills and techniques.
Everything in life has value ... Especially you
