I've come to discover lately that moment is a key element in what shapes my overall decisions and the activity that i engage in on a daily basis. i work part time, so when i happen to do a 50 hour week, packed with other non-work related responsibilities, i find my mind is almost always in an adequate state when it comes to overcoming the tasks ahead of me in a confident manner, however over-encumbering they may seem.
On the flip side, when i find myself rostered with 3 shifts over a 2 week period, having now graduated with no real responsibilities outside of work, i find my momentum to get anything done at all dramatically decreases. In my motivated state, i might tell myself how badly i'm going to start smashing the gym once i have all that time off, yet when i finally get to those days off, i cant help but avoid those tasks i had set for myself by justifying other more immediately gratifying tasks that may arise.
I've found this failure to apply discipline in certain circumstances has been a real issue in my overall growth as a human being. I obviously need to decide whether i am able to employ discipline that can manifest on its own without the element of momentum. or if not, i must ensure i am constantly on a upward spiral of momentum that is continuously reinforced in order for me to grow in an ascended version of who i am as my current self.
Thank you for reading and i would appreciate any comments immensely!
