Just go get hypnotized a few times then and cheat :P that should rewire the memorys and thoughts to let you progress further! I call it cheating because is working much better. Theres also a therpapy style caleed "shaking therapy" Is got a better name for it but its slipped my mind atm.

You get hypnotised and go back through all the traumas but then you start to shake physically which relesases them from us, us humans are the only mammal that doesnt shake after we experience a trauma, we do the oppersite and we freeze up..

TLP I think it might be called, but i must got get a bus soon so I cant check, and bus time is my mediation time so no looking at phones hahahah