I tried to tell myself it did not affect me
I walked around saying, “I’m Good.”
And a couple of hours later, I still said, “Seriously, I’m Good.”
Yet the damage had already been done.
The impact overall overwhelmed me.
I found it difficult in that moment to use my words
I locked down, closed off, yet to those I trusted I reached out.
Yet the response was silence in the universe for 30 seconds.
And in that moment it seemed like the longest and loneliest seconds of my life.
I was downtrodden in strife.
Yet the day had to go on, meetings, phone calls, paperwork, housework
I had a date with creativity, in a sacred contract to continue to produce
From a place of authenticity.
Quality content for the masses, meetings to find alternative solutions
So that my community could not just survive but thrive.
I had to just keep on working, laying my hurts and sensitivities to the side.
At the end of the day, the only thing that matters is, did I make the right choices?
Did I correctly act or did I just react, to life situations
I thought in silence I should not have to accept disrespect as being ok,
nor should I be judged as overreacting,
When what went down didn’t happen that way.
Yet and still now it’s time, for a course correction.
And though all of it is a hard pill to swallow; I’ve said what I had to say. And I’m moving on
Knowing that this is not my battle to fight.
As a child of everything and all and everything and all is me
The universe will bring a reckoning, justice is the decree.
At the very core of my being
I reside in a deeper knowing
Of why on this earth I came to be.
And my purpose is bigger than disrespect from others that don’t know who I am.
Because I know, no longer will I allow distractions, no more of time will I lose track.
I quickened my steps as I resumed my journey and immediately I rallied back.
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