I think being able to change, first starts with the ability to be honest with myself about some of my negative qualities too. Not so I can overly focus on them but so I can know they exist and attempt to navigate them a little. I struggle with the term "authenticity" sometimes. Lets be real, my "authentic" self could be lazy as fuck, sleep all day and eat ice cream for dinner more than 3 times a week. Deep down I want to be better but can I be better? just the way I am right now? Are my high standards that I can't even adhere to 90% of the time my true "authentic" self? I know I expect too much of myself, even on today, day 2/365 to change my life. I still have 363 days left, it is going to be a fine balance between knowing when I am expecting too much, and not enough. We will know on day 365 for sure.
Talk soon,
Xo