Because for the last seven or so years she hasnt talked to me, she went out and had a kid, i fell in love at first sight over her but everyone tells me shes no good for me. i met her at a funeral when my grandfather died and i was never able to let go of it after we went on a date. i really had feelings for her but she broke my heart and never spoke to me again and i was daydreaming about her for the longest time. Basically, i just gave up.

last night i had a dream about another girl i am very fond of and i know she would be much better for me but the problem is the same, she wont talk to me and she might be too good for me because i am such a simple kind of guy and all of these girls i am interested in are so educated and live upbeat lives.

im diagnosed as schizoaffective and the world thinks im crazy but these females keep coming to me in the spirit and i have no clue if its real or not.