I've been missing for quite a looong time on Steemit, and my Steemit break was sudden and quiet. Some of you thought that I would never return (what I realized from your unfollows), but here I am. I guess I owe you an explanation of what happened and where was I. So let's look at some news and changes in my life.
Life 1.2 Patch Notes
Student's life
"I'm out of energy and pissed of-of my school's system."
Few years ago I really wanted to become an engineer, but when I get back to school to finally achieve it, I find out that I'm out of energy and pissed of-of my school's system (I even find some white hair on my head from time to time, and I'm just 24 y. o.). To explain my attitude... For master specialization, I choose UX, because it is my dream job for now, and I thought it'll be interesting and easy. But not at our college. We have a lot of mandatory subjects which are just great pain in the ass and nothing more. They have nothing to do with my specialization, but I still have to absolve them... When I'm talking to my classmates, most of them have the same feelings about it. Everybody is fed up.
So I decided to stop studying. I would rather find some promising job to start my career and finally enjoy my life because I wasn't enjoying it at all until now. I ended this degree hunt, and my parents must somehow get used to it. Finally, I'll have time for my hobbies and stuff I like.
New gaming PC
Yeah, I have my own gaming machine since November. I saved a lot of money on it because I got a graphic card from my (soon to be boy)friend. He wanted to replace his for a newer model, so he gave me his old one, which is still pretty decent. And thanks to Black Friday I got the rest.
My gaming den
So I am no longer playing on my laptop so that I can run more games and I even become better in shooters. But what's sad is that most of the time I have no mood to play singleplayer games. I'm just playing Fortnite with my boyfriend...
I even wanted to create some videos on my new PC, but I'm shy as hell, and I have parrots in the same room which are screaming sometimes.
New boyfriend
"He is developing games in his free time."
As I slightly indicated in the previous chapter, I have a new boyfriend, and he is no one else than that guy who gave me his old graphic card. At that time I didn't even know this will happen, but we were going through some dramas with my ex. Well, it was something like a love triangle, but in all honesty. I'm not a whore. Ex had some problem with him, but I didn't, so we broke up.
It means there will be no wedding. I'll keep my crazy Polish surname for now.
But I don't regret any of this. I'm happy — more than ever. I'm dating my dream man right now, and you'll hear about him from time to time because he is developing games in his free time. I admire him. I think he has a great talent and because he even worked in some Czech gaming studios (SCS Software and Bohemia Interactive), he really knows how to do it.
"He even worked in some Czech gaming studios."
A few years ago he tried to put one of his bigger projects (which was too big to do in one person) on Kickstarter, but he didn't get enough money, so he postponed it indefinitely. I think it is a shame, but since there won't be enough money to hire people, this game won't be released :(
"Right now he is working on some smaller projects."
So right now he is working on some smaller projects. One should be even for VR (yeah, we had VR at home, so we are playing Beat Saber on it time to time) and right now he is working on pixel art game. I'm helping him a bit. I can't create games, and I'm not sure if I want to, but I'm giving him some advice and ideas (I must get on his nerves sometimes, I think. I'm not easily satisfied :D), and sometimes I draw something. He is just too tired to do graphics on his own.
New home
"It was a bit strange at the beginning."
You may be wondering, where I live right now. Well, I live with my new boyfriend. As I switched from one man to another in one day, I also had to move from one flat to another. It was a bit strange at the beginning. We knew each other just slightly, but I must say it was even better than dating. When you are dating somebody, you play some "perfect partner" theater, but when you move in together, you finally find out who this person really is. We skipped this theater, and it is worth it. Even my parrots got a better papa. So it was win-win.
Mirror selfie with my birdies in a new flat
"We are not fighting yet."
The flat consist of just one big room (which serves as a living room, study room, bedroom and kitchen at once), hall and bathroom. It must sound horrible, and you must think that we must get on each other's nerves, but not. It depends on the person with whom you are sharing your room. We have similar temperaments, so it is completely OK. We are not fighting yet.
Artists beware! I'm coming!
"Finally I found a new hobby..."
As I already said, I don't enjoy playing singleplayer games lately, so I had one problem. What should I do if I have nothing to do and I don't want to disturb my boyfriend or be too needy? I didn't know for a long time, because I felt like a dead man. I didn't want to do anything, and I completely lost enthusiasm for anything. So at first, I was coloring paint by number color book (for adults of course), but then my boyfriend came with the idea that I'll be drawing characters, etc. to his games, because he doesn't want to do it. Finally, I found a new hobby... the problem was just that last time I drew something from my imagination was in elementary school. So I bought some online character drawing courses to learn to draw more professionally, and it's definitely worth it. I quite like my drawings. They are not perfect, because I haven't learned human anatomy in more detail yet, but I still like the result.
Legs are strange because it was entirely from my imagination and I don't know anatomy well
Next step will be getting used to the digital drawing which is completely new to me, so I'm quite struggling with a graphic tablet, and I'm not satisfied with the results. I like rough sketches more.
This one may get into some game in the future...
In conlusion
What my comeback to Steemit actually means for you? Well, I'll create some content on Steemit, but it won't be regular (even this post waited an eternity to came to light).
"I will specialize more in games."
In my free time, I don't always have a mood to write something, because creating some epic content is also quite time-consuming and I would rather spend it differently. No matter the earnings I'll miss. So I won't promise you anything, because if I will, I would definitely break it after a while.
I will specialize more in games. There should be some other content like my drawings, something about our trip to Iceland in June, etc., but gaming content will prevail, and I'll try to be as best I can. Like every time.
My boyfriend and our friend have a vision of me playing Dark Souls (they are big Dark Souls enthusiasts) and recording it. Well, maybe I'll get to it, but I must get some balls first.
For the Czech community, it means that I won't be writing bilingual posts, because it was too time-consuming, but I'll definitely visit #cesky to see what's new.
