I don't know what you need to be happy in life? Or how much do you need to stay cool in life? I am 30+ years old and still finding that answer! Maybe when I am at my 60, still then I will be looking for the answer!
Sometimes I think life is so unfair - why did God give some people so much money and put some people in poverty!
Oh! Don't tell me that money can't buy happiness! I've seen that money can buy a lot of joy! It can give you whatever you want on this earth! It can give you a ticket to travel to outer space like Jeff Bezos or Elon Musk!
Money can't give you immortality! Other than that, money is everything! Well, you can argue with me all day long on this point!
I went to the psychiatrist yesterday! I didn't want to, but my wife insisted, and she couldn't see me like this - depressed, unhappy with life! The psychiatrist talked a lot about God, how God tests us in life so that we should have patience and wait for a better time! I listened, but it didn't calm my mind!
Why is God tasting some people hardly and some people not? Does God like some people more and the other less? Or are the deprived people getting bigger rewards afterlife?
My head is spinning! I am not getting any clue!
Well, Covid attacked us like a tornado and devastated everything we know normal! It destroyed so many families! So many people lost their jobs, but at least they can be happy that they are alive!
But are they really alive? I don't think so! This new world after covid is killing me slowly, day by day! I am feeling like a pathfinder without any path to go! I should be happy that I am still not affected by Covid, but I can't be satisfied! My inner peace is dying and only some portion of life is left there!
I traveled North recently to my inner peace! I wanted to freshen my mind by traveling! It worked, though! I forgot all the sorrows at least for six days!
I traveled wherever I wanted to travel; I ate whatever I wanted to eat! I tried to live a life! And then again, you don't have the fortune to lead a life through traveling! You have to come back to your disgraceful life after a particular time!
Then again, hectic life - looking for a job, working harder and harder for the future! What Future! That future is unknown, like a black hole!
I really don't know how to get my inner peace without earning a lot of money or even thinking about money!
I just want to enjoy my life!
I want to travel the whole world before I die!
I want to be smiling when I wake up every day!
Am I asking for a lot?