There are days I find myself starring outside while I see nothing and all I hear are the voices in my head. The world spins and people do their thing while I find myself stuck inside my head with thoughts I can not shake. Why do certain things happen and why does it affect me so much? Sometimes these thoughts or questions are small but there are also days they are heavy and the only thing I feel on those days is sadness and the need to escape my own mind.
But I can't run away from my own thoughts, they are stuck in my head and I am stuck with them. We come as a pair and there is no way to split us up. No matter how hard I run my thoughts will always catch up and slither back in their comfy home that is my head.
Today I woke up with the news on the back ground and my heart skipped a few beats hearing about a new bombing in Turkey. One might say I should not listen to the news but for some reason the news always finds you as well. I feel for all the people who lost loved ones or friends today. Because of this news my mind started to spin again today and I found myself lost in a pit of sadness while I am not even close to where it all happened.
I care, I care too much maybe even though I believe you can never care too much. But I also believe that I let the world in too easy. I always scream I have this big wall build around me to protect myself for any harm but truth is that wall is made of cotton candy because the first ray of sunshine of the day already melts my wall. I want every soul on this earth to be happy, to feel loved but who am I to make that happen? What can I do? I am just one person, one soul who dreams about a better world.
On days like these I wish I could do more than just send a friendly smile or blog into the world. I wish I could wrap my arms around every soul and squeeze them tight while I whisper in their ears that everything will be okay. I wish I could take away the pain of those who suffer and bring them happiness instead. But I am just me and my arms are not that huge.
Today I feel like being a single drop of water falling down on a burning plate trying to safe the world from harm by sending love and understanding, acceptance and guidance. But instead of cooling the burning plate down I am already vaporized before I hit it!
Just my thoughts!
Please be more kind for each other. Life is too short to live in pain and hate!
