I woke up at 5…. Yes at 5am, I was ready and fixed the room, perfumed it well, and went out. My schedule for the day was to give a visit to the international hospital to apply for a part time job. I waited in the library until 7:30 am, the hospital is not far from where I live, just 5 min walk. I went to look for the human resources service. The hospital is really huge that you get confused, it was a little complicated to find the service. Once there, I had to wait for 10 minutes, since they open at 8am, and yes they did open exactly at 8 !!! I promise it is the truth. I had to check first on the available positions, the only one suitable for me was the IT Generalist. I had then to fill a huge 4 pages application form, many usual questions asked, previous jobs, education, blablabla. After finishing everything, the lady told me that they will contact me if selected, after 2 to 4 weeks. Right…I can wait then forever.
I really finished earlier than expected, I came back by 9:15 min, I decided to go to the gym since I had nothing to do. I was so confident, did not realize that I am really not strong to do any activity. I jumped on the treadmill and started running for a total time of 20 minutes. I did not feel anything, but when I cooled down, I felt really dizzy and about to pass out and loose consciousness . I had then to lay down fast, all the bad feelings happened, I felt the envy to throw up, then a diarrhea then a horrible stomach pain. I was laid down for hours, until 11am, I slept a little bit to decrease the pain, drank water ,ate a banana. I was so scary.
I realized how week I am, and that I need a long time rest, and eat really well. By 12pm, there was no work to do, they did not call me. Sam did not even pass by, I do not understand, but I felt really alone today, and I guess I have to do all thing by myself and do not count on anyone. I need to be strong, really. I am afraid to fall and fail. But I will resist. I had after that a horrible headache from looking for part time jobs. I went to that meeting room and laid down a little bit, then went to the pool. By 7Pm or 8, I went for dinner, I had to eat some good meat, because I needed energy in my body, I feel so weak. I had a small tour in the arabic neighborhood, so crowded, I bought green lenses, just for fun.
Tomorrow I will have a good morning meeting for breakfast, hope I will get to know many people there, because I am starting to feel very annoyed here.
For a better tomorrow.
