"Isn't that contradictory? From your side, you solicit readership and interaction, but when I do the same thing, it is evidence of anxiety and desperation. Does that mean that you are anxious or desperate yourself?"

Yes, I'm anxious; I confessed my fear. I have no question about my feelings, and I don't deny them! I thought that you read that (https://steemit.com/education/@rortian/community-discussion-my-fear).

Did I contradict myself? Perhaps somewhat, but who is free of conflict???

Honestly, when I wrote that I was mostly joking, making light of our situation. I don't feel desperate, and I don't need to do this stuff. And I don't think that my desires are comparable to yours (how could we compare them anyway??)

As for the last part,
I need to figure out what I could write next that would be useful

in retrospect, need was too strong a word. It's my desire; it's important to me that I share, and the more people who engage, the better it might become.

"tailor my content"?

I do that when I talk or write to individual people. My job when writing otherwise is to write something that people can both understand and apply to developing more effective habits. I don't see how I can tailor content to attract many readers, and I suppose that that's one reason I haven't had much success. That's why I'm seeking editorial support.

Tigrilla, I feel that your questioning is an attempt to make me wrong. Playing gotcha or defending myself against your suspicions may be a very important process from your perspective, but I wish that we'd do something else.

I appreciate your interest and your integrity. Here's what I'd like for you to tell me:

You seem to me to have implied that you benefitted from our conversation, but I have no idea what you learned, how it affected you, or what difference it made. (Your brief description was mysterious to me.) I'd like to know that stuff in detail, if it actually made a difference. Here's why: If it did help you in some way(s), then we could follow up on that, because that's what's important to you. At the moment, I don't know how you've reacted (other than questioning my consistency), or what you might want to learn (if anything!)!

I understand from what you've written here that we can't move on until you'll create trust in my competence; that is, if you'll do that. If you won't then I fear that we'll continue to run in circles. That's very tiresome for me, and it doesn't fit my purpose of creating progressive dialogues. I'm not here to lead anybody, just to share my experience in useful ways, but I can't know what's useful to people unless they engage openly and progressively.

I don't want to continue going backwards. Do you?

Any other suggestions? I'm actually here for you at the moment.

With love and respect,

Mike