You Gotta Ask for What You Want!

I am learning to receive the abundance that Universe gives to me; whether through people, nature or situations.

When I was a child, my late dad told me that we are poor, therefore we don't ask from others and we don't take from others. He didn't even want me to accept a scholarship. I don't blame him. He had his own conditioning. And me... I grew up doing exactly that. Not just I don't ask, I reluctant to take from others as well, especially when it comes to big gifts, even when I deserve it.

Until recently, I've been told by a friend that I need to learn to ask. It is a form of honouring my own need and a healing for my trauma. According to her, I shall start with small stuff and it's okay to be rejected. As long as I ask, I am honouring my healing process. Then I realised, I've been getting the same messages from others all these years: "You gotta ask for what you want".

So, this is what happens tonight. I looked at my favourite chocolate, and I want it. A friend who stood next to me asked me: "Do you want it?". After battling with my feeling of unworthiness, I consciously said: "Yes I want it". She then bought it for me as a gift after three hours of chill-out coaching session.