Good evening once again. My Carleign's fast asleep and I want to finish this series tonight. I'm running out of time because on Friday we will be going to Pampanga instead of Baguio City. There was a sudden and last minute preparation regarding the change of venue for the EPS-TOPIK exams.
Sa gabing ito nais ko ng tapusin ang aking kwentong pag-ibig. Andami talagang namamatay sa maling akala. Mabuti na lang at ako'y buhay pa. Salamat sa Diyos. Sa maikling sabi natapos ang aking maliligayang araw. My marriage turned upside down. We used to enjoy it until it came to a point that we were just enduring it for our children's sake. I on the other hand did everything to remain as his wife and as the mother to our children. Kinaya ko lahat. Ginawa ko naman lahat ng aking makakaya noon. I did my best but I guess it was not enough...never enough...never never never...never enough! Ipinaglaban ko siya pero bumitaw na siya e. He gave me the reason not to fight for our marriage anymore. Wala naman na akong makitang rason para ipagpatuloy pa. Kaya bumitaw na din ako. Ang sakit sakit na kasi. I have kept holding on for too long and during those trying times I was just hurting myself all along. How can I be so stupid! So dense and so naive! I decided to let him go. Even if it hurts me so bad. 😭 I have no choice but to let him go. I was too tired trying to hold our family together and he was just as tired as I am trying to break free. Well that was how I felt and I saw back then.
Now looking back after we had a short talk almost 2 years ago. I can say that we both matured and have at least moved on. I don't know if he has a new found love already or not. It doesn't really matter to me at all now. I just demand only one thing from him. And that is for him to continue to be a father to our daughters. I am happy with the way things are now with me. I am learning to live my life again. I am enjoying life for as long as I can. And by God's grace we are all learning to carry each other's burden here...me, my daughters and my strong and tough nanay.👍🙏👍
Mga hugot ko sa buhay lahat galing sa masakit na karanasan ko sa pag-ibig. I used to be in camp sawi but by God's grace I am now in camp wagi.💪💪 Inisip ko na lang din na kung talagang may desire pa siya para isalba ang aming marriage sana man lang nag effort din siya kahit papaano. Ilang taon din naman akong naghintay pero wala. Kaya naman nagdesisyon na rin akong bumangon na at harapin ang masakit na katotohanan. Our marriage lasted 12 years. And I can say that we both have our fair share of heartbreaks. Mas nasaktan ako keysa sa kanya siguro. But again it takes two to tango they say. I have my faults and I humbly admit it. I am not putting all the blame on him. Kaya lang siya ang nang iwan e ako ang iniwan.
Ngayon nasa kanya na ang desisyon kung babalikan niya kami o hindi na. Sana man lang pag dumating na siya sa punto ng kanyang realisasyon na kami ay balikan sana may babalikan pa siya. Nakakalungkot lang kung wala na siyang babalikan. It will be too late for him. And he would be singing if only I could turn back time.
(Photos are grabbed from my FB friend's timeline photos)
There you have it my friends. My simple and not-so-colorful love story. Mahugot ako minsan talaga and it is my way of just laughing out instead of feeling the pain, nursing it. Just hugot it 👍👍😁