You need a Previa dude! It will cure all this. I used to post pictures of luxury Hawaii dream homes, zen designs, blah blah blah and I ended up homeless in a beat up old Toyota van while I watched all my "friends" become rich. It feels good to no longer have those attachments and if one of those homes happen to come into my experience at some point I will simply not give a fuck about it haha. I think it's a good place to be. I'm going to be a billionaire! I'm living a yurt with no car on food stamps haha. Shit happens.