If it wasn't for meditation, I never would have faced one of my fears. It didn't make me feel empowered and I didn't overcome the fear.
If it wasn't for meditation, I never would have felt so happy these past few weeks. Confidence like I used to have slowly returned only to be knocked away with a single blow.
If I hadn't meditated at all, I never would've gotten to know her so well, so calmly. My heart wouldn't have been broken.
I would not be feeling much of anything right now. Instead, my morning is greeted by terrible pangs.
All I can do is continue.
The cause of these feelings is old and underlying. Only now buoyancy returns bringing scars to the surface. As this energy surges, however uncomfortable it may be, a new phase of the work can begin.
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