Whoa…You have sent me so many mixed messages I hardly know where to start.
First off, let’s just say if the profile pic is you, the elders would call you a cutie pie. No offense, it’s just the colloquialism of elders.
Secondly, I’m ‘confused’ at the thumbnail of the young woman with the bad mascara. Is this a sublimal? Are you inferring that you are a woman trapped in a man’s body?
Of course, this is a public forum; and the question is rhetorical; meaning, only for you to answer to yourself.
If so, then it’s time for a whole other truth-telling. Shrugging my shoulders here…only the individual knows how to process the truths and when.
But, let’s just say the pic is to just reflect the title, and there’s nothing subliminal about it.
While young, you are still of man age. And, to quote the Bible:
God said, “It is not good for man to be alone”. So, He gave Adam, Eve. (Genesis 2:22)
Be patient; there is an Eve for you. I know this is truth; because God said so. And, when the time is just right she will show up. And, the right time is when you are ready. I don't recommend looking for love; though arguably some have and successfully so. I’m of the belief, just live your life, keep your eyes open, and when it’s time, oft times in the least likely of circumstances, she will appear.
And, as for mother…well, now that you are of man age ;+)…it’s time to prepare for the other thing God says about the topic, when Miss Right comes into the pic:
A man should leave his mother and father; and, CLEAVE to his wife. (Ephesians 5:31)
This means the time is nearing (prolly a decade or less) when the apron strings will have to be cut to live a proper adult life, full responsibility for your decisions and choices. So, it’s a good time to begin practicing for such. Realistically, in this competitive world, most times you will have to be your own cheering squad.
Hope this helps, 
Peace.
RE: confused