One of the most painful truths to swallow is that no matter what or whom caused the hurt, you are the one who has to clean up the damage that it has inflicted on your soul. While it is an extremely difficult process to deal with excruciating suffering, so is of accepting the status of victimhood. Just when you thought the mess couldn’t get messier, you find yourself forced to heal from something you have no responsibility in. Hands full of blood, empty conscience, walking away leaving you alone, face to face with something you can’t possibly comprehend. Standing in front of a fatality, powerlessness becomes your witness.
Just as the pain you feel in each fiber of your being is yours to hold onto, the key to healing from it is to be found inside you. You aren’t alone in this. Your inner child has been suffocating from being left alone in the darkness of your soul. And that child is you. He needs you to attend to his needs, to protect him at all costs, and give him the unconditional love he desperately needs from you. Despite everything that you have endured, your inner child is still alive. A part of you may have died, but there is still something alive inside of you. In your hands lay the precious power to create a new normal - one in which coping mechanisms, intrusive thoughts and self-destructive ways of being no longer control you.
The trials we face will always be part of our life story. We can’t erase them. Yet through healing we can learn to no longer be defined by them. Just like a broken plate can’t go back to what it once was, we are forever changed by the traumas we have been through. Through recollecting all the broken pieces of our being and infusing them with love, we can perhaps create a mosaic. The cracks in our heart will forever remain - but what we turn them into will transform us.