Yesterday, I made a post extolling the virtues of action over indecision. I referred to my current job search, and how, what seemed like a dream job offer ended up being a complete nightmare.. at least from my perspective.
Today, though, It seems I will need to swallow my pride with a thick slice of Humble Pie.
The story is, even though this current job is similar to my previous one.. in ways it's completely different. And that's probably why I hate it so much at the moment.. I'm sure I hated my old job when I first started, until I got used to the operation and routine.. This new job tends to do things a LOT different than what I am used to. From how it pays, and schedules, to where you might access vital information, if that information is even available.
So, in an attempt to make heads or tails of what was the "normal" operating procedure, I resorted to tracking down an employee run facebook group. I made a post along the lines of.. This is what is happening to me.. is it normal? and started to receive a flood of responses.
I am glad that the members of this group are so active, and willing.. but the answers I was getting were conflicting and therefore no closer to helping me out.
Although over the last few days, It has come to light that this company does contracts on an individual basis, and what is true for one employee, might be inaccurate for another. For example, some workers get full standby pay as allocated in their contractual agreement.. others get half, and most new employees contracts don't cover standby pay.
This explains why the information was conflicting. But what knocked me down a peg was when I exposed some information in my contract (I don't think I was supposed to).. and the group told me that I was hired in as a specialist in a opportunity that not many have been offered..
I perceived a hint of resentment or jealousy from the others at that point, and had to gracefully back step my way out of the conversation..
Here I was ready to rant and rave and join the fray. Complaining about how awful the situation was, only to have it revealed that I was in an enviable position.. One that many would instantly clamor for if given the chance.
I immediately felt foolish and ashamed. I realized that I have been looking at life with a spoiled sense of entitlement.. and that has allowed cynicism to be my standard Modus Operandi towards life.
Instead of looking at everything that is wrong or lacking.. I should be grateful for the gifts and graces that I have been blessed with. Instead of seeing all that is sub-par, I should rejoice in the above-average life that I live.
Instead of complaining about a half empty glass.. I should see that it is a lot fuller than most are allotted.
So today, I will have my humble slice of pie with grace and relish..