This year has been many things to me. It was up, down, sideways, diagonal and at one point just static.
It was also a year where I felt that situations shifted on their own accord. I really felt it was a year where I actually applied the art of allowing to some parts of my life - in terms of family and to some extent, my finances. They were not great or good, but just IS.
I let nature takes its course. I heeded by body's need for rest. I did pretty much nothing towards the 4th quarter for the year. I noticed that my inner self needed some alignment and re-calibration. So I took a 2-day Inner Engineering course (by Isha) and practiced Shambavi Mahamudra. It really aligned me back to my centre. I realised how much I've gotten off track because I was not in tune with the alignment of mind, body and energy body.
When this (the body, mind & energy) is aligned, the entire cosmos flows through you. ~ Sadhguru
It was also a time when I didn't spend that much time in nature as is with the years before. And this made me angry at myself for not being the person who loves nature.
But one thing's for sure, I did not try to run away this year. I took life head on. Yes, there were times when I was falling into the rabbit hole like Alice (Alice In Wonderland) until I just don't know how to pick myself back up. And there were times when I just want all these to stop. But I continued walking anyway, completely discounting everything else that happened around me. I was just not interested in reacting or responding to my outer world, because I've had it. They were so trivial, menial and just not fulfilling and utterly tiring.
So I thought to myself, alright then, if 2018 is a year where it pulled me in different directions then so be it. It's just a matter seeing from a different perspective: Is it trying to tell me to pick a direction for 2019 or is it trying to show me that life is supposed to be flexible - because if you don't bend, you'll break.
I'm not hoping for anything in 2019. I'm just going to live 2019. Because to be alive is already enough.
PS: I posted the pic of my swallow tattoo because that tattoo is now a reminder for me to just LIVE. Simply because life is meant to be lived, not mulled over, procrastinated or remain the same. Growth is imminent and joy is inevitable because it's always there to be experienced, as is with grace. Living life is when I live it joyfully while exuding with grace.