Why is it that we humans grieve, is it just an evolutionary prod that serves to strengthen our social connections, or is it something more, something beyond our understanding.
I thought a lot about loss during my 3 and a half week walkabout. It took me a long time to come to terms with the passing of my best friend and lifelong guide. But even with all the grief, I saw and gained something more important, peace and purpose.
I asked myself and now you all this: would we care as much about those we love if we knew they would be with us forever, that our lives would face no adversity or change? I don't think so, I think the fragility of life is the reason we value it so much. That is why I have realized that mourning for the loss I had is not what I should have been doing, I realized i should celebrate and cherish the time we spent together and that I should take what the little puppy embodied and apply it to my being, his endless love, his resilience and ever present peace. Every tree and rock I scattered his ashes on took me one step more to being at peace, coming to terms with my chaotic life.
No matter what life may throw at me, and it has thrown quite a bit. I know that if I keep my head forward, those bumps won't be able to stop me. I have learned that having a huge loss doesn't mean it's over, or that I can't move on, it's just a way to learn and to grow.
That trip made me grow up, and I am so grateful to have had the chance to do it. All of you who read my work, look at my art and laugh at my jokes made it possible.
Lots of love, be blessed and remember how sacred and special life is!
Kara