why i can't express my feeling in my post

hello guys ..

As you know that english is not the native language.

so it is very dificult for me to express my feeling my in my posts as now i want to write a deep post but because of english i can't find suitable words for my feeling..many people told me to write in your native language but i think that no one will understand urdu .
Urdu is our native language..

as my brother Hive account@ausbitbank told me to translate post through google translater but i think that google will not able to express my feeling because google translate word by word and i know that it will be bad english then me .

i hope you will try to understand ..
hoping some help from you guys thanks