The other day, I went through my accordion file folder that has held personal memories and paperwork for many many moons. I got rid of a lot of things from my past, but everything in this accordion file folder is really close to my heart for one reason or another.
I found my old anatomy and faerie drawings back when I was practicing to be like my sister. I was pretty decent, the cover picture here was from 2004 when I was just starting out! I had a slight obsession with anatomy and drew random things like hip bones and eye sockets. This is the Muscles of the back. The Left is the first layer and the right is the 2nd and 3rd. Weird to look at now because my L3 and L4, T2 through T5 are damaged with scoliosis and I'm sure much worse now with my drag a leg. My C4 through C7 are all herniated. In addition to the Fibromyalgia over my entire body and CRPS -Complex Regional Pain Syndrome in my Right hand/arm and Right foot/leg.
I can't hold a pen properly to draw anymore, but that's ok. I get my artistic flare out with my blog and my CRPS awareness images and will return to drawing once I can.
I also found a small, folded piece of paper. It was originally typed out on a type writer, but due to age and being folded, the ink has bled to all sides. I can barely read it, but the message is so important and it finally connects with me on a new level because of where and what I am.
I have to share this with you. I'm going to type it out exactly as it appears on my little folded paper and I hope it connects in an inspiring way:
Attitude
There once as a woman, who woke up one morning,
looked in the mirror,
and noticed she had only had three hairs on her head.
'Well,' she said, 'I think I'll braid my hair today.'
So she did and she had a wonderful day.
The next day she woke up,
looked in the mirror,
and saw that she had only two hairs on her head.
'H-M-M,' she said.
'I think I'll part my hair down the middle today.'
So she did and she had a grand day.
The next day she woke up,
looked in the mirror and noticed
that she only had one hair on her head.
'Well,' she said, 'Today I'm going
to wear my hair in a pony tail.'
So she did and she had a fun, fun day.
The next day she woke up,
looked in the mirror and noticed
that there wasn't a single hair on her head.
'YAY' she exclaimed,
'I don't have to fix my hair today!!'
ATTITUDE IS EVERYTHING.
Be kinder than necessary,
for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.
Live Simply.
Love generously,
Care deeply,
Speak kindly.........
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass...
it's about learning to dance in the rain...."
"-Don't give up Kristen! Keep Dancing!"
That was a gift in 2006 (ish) from someone I was not expecting it from and I have kept it ever since because of how it connected with me then. Here I am, 13 years later (Oh yuck that makes me sound old....) and it connects with me more than ever. I feel I really push to achieve this attitude in my daily living, and it's been instilled in me for quite some time it seems.
My blog isn't just about connecting with others who are in excruciating pain daily because of the conditions we have. It's about inspiring others to do simply what this poem says, 'Dance in the rain'. No matter what's going on. Make the best of whatever you are given. Smiles are free and happiness is within us, not around us <3
On that lovely note, I am going to try to connect with a few people today before work and then I am on a 5 day weekend! Woohoo! Oh the things I will accomplish over the next few days will be great and much needed. I look forward to the better days that are ahead and am making the best of today <3 I hope you do the same <3
Please donate to the 2nd Annual Walk to Conquer CRPS by going to either links below:
helps.org/en/pages/walk-to-conquer-crps/
https://www.gofundme.com/f/walk-to-conquer-crps
Positive Thoughts,
-Kristen Sparkle
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