First of all: YOU ARE NOT ALONE! Keep that in mind - Depression is spreading its wings all over the world. Approximately 5% of people suffer from depression.
You are just perfect the way you are! I know it sounds odd and you won't believe it yourself, but in fact, you are perfect. We all have our weaknesses and strengths. That makes us humans. You've probably spent most of your time focusing on your weaknesses, and you've slipped into a negative rant. That does not matter. Try to accept for the moment that you are really f******. The good thing is, from a certain low point, it is only more up.
It's not your fault! Often, depression results from physical deficiencies. Too little testosterone? Vitamin deficiency? minerals deficient? Make sure to visit a doctor and Make sure to visit a doctor and have a blood sample sent for examination. And while it's not a physical cause, it's not surprising that in a world full of injustice and modern slavery (by which I mean all employees and people who have less than € 400,000 in equity), you have slipped into a negative mindset. You are probably just smart enough to understand grievances.
If you are not suicidal at the moment, then you should definitely get help from professionals. In this state, pharmaceuticals can help you to become more and more alive and to be happy overnight! That gives you enough energy and happiness to get along with life, believe me. Then you can still see what steps you would like to take next.
Look at yourself. Be selfish, that can be damn fun. Just do not go to work for a day and do what you want instead. Be bold and say what you think. Take a look at YouTube / DTube videos about "healthy selfishness" and try to put things into practice. In the beginning it will be difficult for you and you will feel stupid. so what? Fake it till you make it!
In that sense, do not let the world get you down, no matter how dark it looks. You are a fighter, you are a champion, at the time you are just been knocked out. So what? F*** it, you will come back because you are the best and nobody can force you on your knees permanently!
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Have a great day!