The saying goes like this, there is always a first time to everything.

Basically I really can't remember anything I did for the first time in the last time. I'm not sure if this is the latest one but this is an incident that I really can't forget and just keep it in the closet.

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I am a quiet person. Yes! shy type to be exact (hahahah).

I don't like mingling with people even in church but I tried to overcome it every 12 months a year, 4 weeks a month, 7 days a week and 24 hours a day. If you want me to choose between going out or staying at home. I will usually pick the “staying at home”. Not that I am a kill joy person but I grew up with a strict parents.

Another reason why I lacked confidence because was because I am not used to talk with people. I fear the judgment I see in their eyes once I talk about something.

So what I did for the first time in the last time is to do some hard thing which is TO SPEAK and PERFORM my research during college with these crowd of Doctors of Education as my viewer and criticizer. Never in my wildest dreams that I ever imagined to do that.

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Believe it or not, if I were to play the shrink, I'd say that it is all about being self conscious. Overcoming my fear started when I was able to read the book written by Brett and Alex Harris entitled DO HARD THINGS: A TEENAGE REBELLION ABOUT LOW EXPECTATIONS. Then VIOLA! I was able to overcome it even in slow process but I know it was my biggest achievement and the most expensive gift to myself.

You are amazing in every aspect of this life.

I will never see the old self that I have before in my self right now. I mean there is this confidence that is creeping through my system. As a teacher confidence is very important, it is one of the characteristics that we need to polish and master. Teachers are performers, they dance in front of the students, sing if they need to, be a clown just to break the ice so the class won’t be boring.

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