I'm not very good at asking for help. I even found it difficult to start this post. I guess it's because I have spend so long, being independent, always finding a way, making things work. For those who know me, you know that I like to live a simple life, in nature, exposed to the elements. I'm all about life experiences, which in my eyes, is where the real wealth lies. But now I find myself in a position with I do actually need financial wealth. I have a few different jobs, that I do, that enable me to to live as I do and provide for my girls as best as I can.
I always just have enough, it's how I have lived my life these last few years and it has served us well. But with the recent weather, the wettest it has been in years apparently. Which is great for the land, today it rained so heavy, monsoon heavy. Great for the land, but not for my home, which is a wooden horsebox. The sun here is so strong, which already plays havoc with my wooden home, add in the current torrential rain and my home is now suffering.
I have some leaking around the windows, which could be fixed with some sealant. But it doesn't end there. The rain has seeped through the exterior wood, where now my inside walls are wet. Which means the insulation is wet also. These two weeks, have really damaged my home. Two years ago, I had the idea to put epoxy over the wood, in the hope of sealing it. But that has certainly not worked.
I have wanted to move on from our truck, find a new home for me and my girls, one that would be just ours, with no ties to my ex, their very absent father. But the idea was always to sell the truck or at least trade it in for something else. That is not an option now. I don't have the money to try and fix it, let's be honest that would be a huge undertaking.
With wet walls, I know it will soon get moldy, no one should be living with mold in their home, certainly not be surrounded by it. So I find myself in a tough situation. I already work most days of the week, I need to, as I'm the sole provider for my daughters. But it's no longer enough. I can't afford to rent anywhere, over the last few years the price of rent has shot up, as lots of people like living here. But I also can't afford (for health reasons) to continue to live in my truck.
I'd be willing to work more, if it did provide me with enough income for rent, but work here is not that easy to come by, I'm pretty fortunate to have the jobs I have. I have made it known that I am looking for more work. I have thought about perhaps starting a fundraiser, but I'm so shit at things like that. I have never been good at selling myself, let alone asking for help. But I also don't know what else to do.
If anyone has any ideas, please do share. I'm a hard worker. I'd like to think there would be another way to raise the money besides a fundraiser, I feel like I'm out of the loop for lots of things. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
