Last night...I was awoken by my 4 year old. He wanted me to come lay with him...because he couldn’t sleep. I laid down in his bed and couldn’t go back to sleep myself. My mind started racing...and all I could think about was TIME.
Although time is a made up idea...created by man...it literally is the driving force for almost everything we do, the paths we choose, and where we end up.
When I woke up last night...what initially was on my mind was how much time I would have left to sleep. Then, as I looked at my beautiful sleeping child...it went to...how much longer would he want his mom in his room...to protect him, and keep the monsters at bay?
I got to thinking about how funny it is that a slow day at work can feel like an eternity...but our children grow up in the blink of an eye.
I also started thinking about wasted time...and time that wasn’t savored.
So many times in life...we're in a hurry...a hurry to get to a place or a stage in life. We don’t sit back and savor the time that we’re in right now! I was thinking about he whirlwind courtship I had with my husband. I thought about how quickly we moved from boyfriend/girlfriend to husband and wife! I don’t regret marrying him...not even on the worst day...but I thought about how much more ALONE time we could have had. Was I in the moment enough? Or constantly looking toward the future? Marriage and kids were always on my mind.
I decided last night, to start thinking of time differently. I’m going to savor every minute...live for today...give the future thought...but not so much thought that I lose my here and now.
Anyway...I just thought I’d share...I didn’t get many hours of sleep...by the way.