Dear friends,
If you have been following me, you know my story.
Now, I can imagine, many of you wonder why I posted it on Steemit. To brag? To get attention? No. None of these. Well, sure, I like attention. I'm a girl after all. But the reason I shared my story is that I needed to share it. I mean, I'm sure each of you has been in this kind of situation where you have a secret, or whatever, that you cannot share with your close friends, but which burns inside and really tries to get out. That's what happened to me.
So, yes, In a way I used Steemit to satisfy my urge to "tell it to somebody".
Now, this wasn't an impulsive act. I've spent many hours (nights) thinking and wondering if it was a good idea to put it out there in the open. I mean, what if someone I know is on Steemit and would notice my blog. There's a picture on my profile, so she/he would certainly recognise me. And what would people think? I mean, sure, I don't know (any?) of my readers/followers, so I shouldn't really worry about what you think of it... but I do. And some comments have really hurt my feelings.
I certainly admit and support that we are all entitled to our own opinion and I always try to listen to and respect people's feedback, but nevertheless it does hurt when someone calls you a ho (whore). I mean, am I? Is that what you think of me? Yes, I slept with 2 men in the same week, but does that make me a slut? Regardless of the fact that they are close friends. I wonder what reactions I'd have gotten if I were a man. I can imagine them to be like "Dude, well done!".
So, yes, I do think the negative reactions are partly due to the fact that I am a girl. There is still this idea that for men it is ok/normal to go sleep around, whereas such behavior is deemed "slutty" for girls.
I was not and I am not proud of what I did, but I don't regret it either. To me, in the end, it was all about (achieving) physical en mental freedom. The whole experience made me feel stronger and happier; and that's why decided to share it in the end.
At first, I was planning to keep posting about this and other experiences in my life, but I don't know if I can bear any such reactions in the future. People, as I said, I fully support you expressing your opinion, but perhaps we should all take a breather, before commenting.
Lots of love,
L.
